Betrayal of Self

Something which always has disturbed me is the capacity for some individuals to talk about great things and to feel within themselves that they believe them and when it comes to being those ideals they prove themselves to be all mouth. I wonder where that comes from. Do they feel they are being genuine and in the purest of ideals they would stand for what they believe, yet they believe what they feel is not accomplishable in the reality/world in which they live. How can you be so idealistic yet jaded, they seem to be mutually exclusive of each other. It's a sad realization to have the ability to have the tools/resources to relentlessly pursue the things which you have known to be of pure heart, and the only thing it requires is the faith of those whom you have had the conversations of ideas with. Yet when it comes to this moment they gladly take the easiest way out possible for them, and you are left with the realization that they are not what they say they are. Even more disturbing is the reality that you have had to be personally involved in seeing the worst example of lack of stewardship you may ever have had the chance to see done differently. All I can say with absolute certainly is that I will never allow myself to be on the wrong side when it stands starkly against everything I am as a human. Some among us see individual function as paramount even if they say they value collective response, some know that individual only exists as a part of a collective. I hope I will never take actions against cooperation and collective response.